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2009-03-29T03:47:30Z

all water and gum fast starting tomorrow going until wed no exceptions .

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2009-03-28T19:44:05Z

rd also had about a halfcup of goldfish the crackers not actual fish and dietpepsi I know its cals like noother but its all i'm havin today <3

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2009-03-28T19:43:59Z

its snowing its ass off and i'm stuck with my family so i have to eat. So far i've had a salad with one cup lettuce one half a tomato and honey musta

yeah. well damn. damn. damn.

2009-03-27T19:06:39Z

so im really stoked because today i got my monthly visitor so that means im not preggo! lol but also im having cravings like mad pms and my cramps are fregggin worse then before lol ive gotten used to the starvation empty stomach cramps those are no problem lol but put these two together and its insane. blah. yay no food! lol im to the point where im like woah i cant belive ive made it this long this good like i mean i have slipped up a bit but ive thrown it up every time but like im weak and dizzy and have all the amazing signs of losing losing losing. its amazing. lol plus i have a rad show to go to tommorrow so that means a rad mosh pit and that means lots of lost sweat and im excited lol. im freezing! i hate it . im also hella bored just sitting here at work ! lol only three more hours to go . yay.
love ya girlys and guy dolls :)
be perfect
be thin

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2009-03-26T11:36:43Z

binge purge story of my life im sure i had a thous cal in like 30 min but sure i got rid of atleast nine hundred in the same amount of time. Bitter sweet.

My FiRsT oN hErE 8O

2009-03-25T16:23:09Z

Hey guys :) its my first post on here lol im letting my mind wander on this because half of these foods are wayyy too loaded with cals for me to feel safe eating them but i mean when i slip up theyre my faves :)

BASICS

Alias: Tara
Age: 18
Occupation: soon to be cosmotologist/ psych student
Astrological sign: libra
Favorite color: turquoise

FAVORITE

Fruit: bananna
Vegetable: letuce
Breakfast: biscuts and gravy
Lunch: cheese tortilla bake yum
Dinner: cheese ravioli

Binge food: taco bell and ice cream lol
Candy: reeses :o havent had those in like four years
Ice cream: chocolate brownie chunk with cookie dough :O i need to go to the gym just thinking about it
Dessert: cheese cake
Beverage (non-alcoholic): coffee drinks
Beverage (alcoholic): kalua
Restaurant: buca de pepo
Fast food place: taco bell
Salad Dressing: ranch lol thats so bad

THIS OR THAT
Salty or sweet: both together!
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Coffee or tea: coffee
Medium Rare or Medium Well: i dont eat meat.......
Coke or Pepsi: coke zero
French fries or Onion rings: seasoned french fries
Sour skittles or Regular Skittles: regular for sure
Mexican, Chinese, or Italian: do i really have to pick lol those are my favs! i love cheese
Appetizer or Dessert: dessert

sorry

2009-03-25T15:52:21Z

lol so apparently my mobile posts dont work like i thought they did cause i ended up with a ton of split up messages... agh o well ill just stick to this. so im having my coffee and thats all for today. but im so stressed i dont even feel like eating or have the cravings so i guess thats a good thing lol maybe i should always have a jerk on the side to make me feel horrible itd be like my tool or somethin lol. just rambling, well im work and bored like crazy lol hope all is well with you guys
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2009-03-25T05:45:31Z

find someone who will want me and only me with or without the perfection. Agh night for real this time loves

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2009-03-25T05:45:26Z

lling apart i can't wait till the gym opens .. Only five hours and i can work this out. I'm going to make myself perfect and fingers crossed one day i'll

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2009-03-25T05:45:21Z

care .. It hurts to realize i'm just a piece of ass to him so yeah anyway i left and i have a huge hickie on my chest classy i know . I'm stressed and fa

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2009-03-25T05:45:11Z

tarts listing reasons why i need to Fuck him. Um no. I'm not gonna ride a bike everyone and their mothers been on and especially knowing he doesn't even

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2009-03-25T05:45:06Z

and saw he was texting chicks and talking about how much fun he'd have with them but i didn't say anything then the guy Freakin jumps on top of me and s

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2009-03-25T05:44:56Z

the other day that unless its just me then i don't wanna be with him and he said he cared about me and bla bla so i trusted him. So i went to hang Tonite

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2009-03-25T05:44:51Z

ended up taking a late night trip to the boys house i think its safe to say it'll be the last.. Hes been seeing other girls and stuff and i told him

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2009-03-25T01:33:14Z

tomorrow :) night loves

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2009-03-25T01:33:08Z

nder five hundred and i just got done at the gym i worked my butt off :) thank goodness i just wish i wouldn't have eaten at all but its ok Theres always

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2009-03-25T01:32:58Z

so i had an apple i had a lettuce and cucumber sandwich on grain wheat with fat free honey mustard and water all day so i figure my cals have to be u

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2009-03-24T19:39:48Z

trying the mobile posts! Yay

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2009-03-24T19:24:43Z

aghhhh i am so close to breaking its insane. today has been horrible, not to mention i binged last night ... around 500 cals... which ive been fasting for a bit so i screwed up major with that!! then stayed up all night purging so now i can barely talk. ugg but anyway im so hungry its ridiculous but ive only eaten 70 cals today and that was just some crackers to stop the stomach ache.. since ive acted like such a fat pig im continuing my fast until april 1. and then ill start another on the 5, and between then stay on a 500 cal diet. i just dont know why its so hard at night thats when my binges hit its stupid!! lol well im going to the gym tonight so hope to lose lose lose!! love you girlies <3

so its been a month..

2009-03-19T18:45:17Z

ive been sick for the past three weeks with strep and out of all of it only lost ten pounds.
i have so much more aggg... i just want to be beautiful.

soo soo soo good :D

2009-02-17T20:55:33Z

ive been doing soo soo good lol, im happy. ive somehow managed to lose five pounds in two days and im not fighting them coming back. im well on my way :D

Valentines day!!

2009-02-14T19:08:14Z

lol its valentines day it totally used to be my favorite day of the year now its well... its like.. i dunno complicated. but technically i do have a valentine and hes amazing but i made up an excuse and im skipping out on dinner with him tonite but i guess its not really lying because i am sick i mean after last night i feel like hell , i just dont think i could handle going to some fancy place with 2000 cals a meal lol that wouldnt fit into my 200 cal goal for today plus then hed be watching me constantly ect , ill put that off till later this week. it was so sweet tho he stopped by my house this morning on his way to work at like six in the freggin morning and he put flowers and chocolate on my front porch lol then paid the neighbor kid to watch it and wake me up at seven to get it. i dont deserve him, i think im gonna pay for our matching tats as his gift hes been pushing for them like crazy and i mean i wanted to get hearts on my wrists anyway so it wont be his name or anything ... not too big of a commitment step, baby steps and ill be fine, i hope .
last night was insane , and the dinner part was as horrible as i had thought it would be , we went to red robin so i thought i might be ok but turns out they did have veggie burgers, im disgusted even writing this, but i had a veggie burger and it had bbq sauce cheese FRIED onions and tons and tons and tons of fatty calories im sure, plus i ate my fries too! i never eat that much it was huge and i tried to get away with only eating the fries and a forth but then it raised suspicions so i went ahead and ate it all. i almost broke into tears so many times it was crazy , i literally had to force myself to swallow. then we went to the movie and the whole time all i could think of was everyone staring at me, my thighs , my stomach , my rolls i almost went crazy . when i went to the bathroom they followed me so i was forced to sit with all of that evil in my stomach for a good three hours, then finally we stopped at a gas station on the way home and i got away and finally got to go to the bathroom by myself , i dont think i couldve lasted much longer. but i got most of it up then went home and ran , i lost track of how long but i almost passed out and now i hurt, all my bones my head everything. i just hurt. but it was worth it i deserve it its my own fault i couldve avoided it if i wouldve just got a salad or something but i didnt so o well. in a sick way it feels good. i had three pieces of chocolate today. its sickening to think about, i have no self control sometimes.
other than that i mean the movie was good , it had more sex scenes than the internet has porn lol but o well it was still good. FRIDAY THE 13th rocks!! lol and thats my overview of it. im trying to arrange a shoot for the sgs where the entire theme is based around horror movies lol its gonna be rad if i can do it.
well ima go for now babes
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im giving up my live journal virginity -_-

2009-02-13T21:20:40Z

Im new, but your always new at everything you do once. todays just not going great, i should be happy i havent eaten anything ( and im scared to death because i have to have dinner with my family tonight and they already are suspicious so that means i have to eat.. it wont stay in my stomach tho :) so ill be fine) i'd been on a fast for three days i started monday and ment to go till tonite but i screwed up yesterday and ate, and im so ashamed to say it, but i ate oreos, cookies! seriously im ridiculous im already fat and then screw up my fast with oreos!! and ive been takin ex lax like candy along with some diet pills i got from my friend theyre called alli , i dunno im desperate. everyone keeps telling me im skinny and i just wish theyd shut up. people do not understand skinny , bones are perfection , hip bones collar bones , i want every one of my ribs shown and im on my way but i mean seriously no where near there. i hate myself sometimes. umm other than that im so stoked im seeing friday the 13 tonight!! its love lol. then tommorrow agh tomorrow valentines day. ive got 3 offers im trying to lie my way out of , the one guy i love im too scared to even spend a simple holiday with, im so screwed up sometimes
Im bored
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