all water and gum fast starting tomorrow going until wed no exceptions .

rd also had about a halfcup of goldfish the crackers not actual fish and dietpepsi I know its cals like noother but its all i'm havin today <3

its snowing its ass off and i'm stuck with my family so i have to eat. So far i've had a salad with one cup lettuce one half a tomato and honey musta

so im really stoked because today i got my monthly visitor so that means im not preggo! lol but also im having cravings like mad pms and my cramps are fregggin worse then before lol ive gotten used to the starvation empty stomach cramps those are no problem lol but put these two together and its insane. blah. yay no food! lol im to the point where im like woah i cant belive ive made it this long this good like i mean i have slipped up a bit but ive thrown it up every time but like im weak and dizzy and have all the amazing signs of losing losing losing. its amazing. lol plus i have a rad show to go to tommorrow so that means a rad mosh pit and that means lots of lost sweat and im excited lol. im freezing! i hate it . im also hella bored just sitting here at work ! lol only three more hours to go . yay.
love ya girlys and guy dolls :)
be perfect
be thin

binge purge story of my life im sure i had a thous cal in like 30 min but sure i got rid of atleast nine hundred in the same amount of time. Bitter sweet.

Hey guys :) its my first post on here lol im letting my mind wander on this because half of these foods are wayyy too loaded with cals for me to feel safe eating them but i mean when i slip up theyre my faves :)


BASICS

Alias: Tara
Age: 18
Occupation: soon to be cosmotologist/ psych student
Astrological sign: libra
Favorite color: turquoise

FAVORITE

Fruit: bananna
Vegetable: letuce
Breakfast: biscuts and gravy
Lunch: cheese tortilla bake yum
Dinner: cheese ravioli

Binge food: taco bell and ice cream lol
Candy: reeses :o havent had those in like four years
Ice cream: chocolate brownie chunk with cookie dough :O i need to go to the gym just thinking about it
Dessert: cheese cake  
Beverage (non-alcoholic): coffee drinks
Beverage (alcoholic): kalua
Restaurant: buca de pepo
Fast food place: taco bell
Salad Dressing: ranch lol thats so bad

THIS OR THAT
Salty or sweet: both together!
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Coffee or tea: coffee
Medium Rare or Medium Well: i dont eat meat.......
Coke or Pepsi: coke zero
French fries or Onion rings: seasoned french fries
Sour skittles or Regular Skittles: regular for sure
Mexican, Chinese, or Italian: do i really have to pick lol those are my favs! i love cheese
Appetizer or Dessert: dessert

lol so apparently my mobile posts dont work like i thought they did cause i ended up with a ton of split up messages... agh o well ill just stick to this. so im having my coffee and thats all for today. but im so stressed i dont even feel like eating or have the cravings so i guess thats a good thing lol maybe i should always have a jerk on the side to make me feel horrible itd be like my tool or somethin lol. just rambling, well im work and bored like crazy lol hope all is well with you guys
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find someone who will want me and only me with or without the perfection. Agh night for real this time loves

lling apart i can't wait till the gym opens .. Only five hours and i can work this out. I'm going to make myself perfect and fingers crossed one day i'll

care .. It hurts to realize i'm just a piece of ass to him so yeah anyway i left and i have a huge hickie on my chest classy i know . I'm stressed and fa

tarts listing reasons why i need to Fuck him. Um no. I'm not gonna ride a bike everyone and their mothers been on and especially knowing he doesn't even

and saw he was texting chicks and talking about how much fun he'd have with them but i didn't say anything then the guy Freakin jumps on top of me and s

the other day that unless its just me then i don't wanna be with him and he said he cared about me and bla bla so i trusted him. So i went to hang Tonite

ended up taking a late night trip to the boys house i think its safe to say it'll be the last.. Hes been seeing other girls and stuff and i told him

tomorrow :) night loves

nder five hundred and i just got done at the gym i worked my butt off :) thank goodness i just wish i wouldn't have eaten at all but its ok Theres always

so i had an apple i had a lettuce and cucumber sandwich on grain wheat with fat free honey mustard and water all day so i figure my cals have to be u

trying the mobile posts! Yay

aghhhh i am so close to breaking its insane. today has been horrible, not to mention i binged last night ... around 500 cals... which ive been fasting for a bit so i screwed up major with that!! then stayed up all night purging so now i can barely talk. ugg but anyway im so hungry its ridiculous but ive only eaten 70 cals today and that was just some crackers to stop the stomach ache.. since ive acted like such a fat pig im continuing my fast until april 1. and then ill start another on the 5, and between then stay on a 500 cal diet. i just dont know why its so hard at night thats when my binges hit  its stupid!! lol well im going to the gym tonight so hope to lose lose lose!! love you girlies <3

ive been sick for the past three weeks with strep and out of all of it only lost ten pounds.
i have so much more aggg... i just want to be beautiful.